The last few weeks have been challenging, and I’m not sure why.
I’ve pared down my client list to three clients I love, so work isn’t really a chore at the moment.
I’m making progress on my “Quest for National Publication,” so that’s good.
I don’t have any pressing issues, obligations or major things to worry about…so yay to that.
And yet…here I sit, uneasy about it all.
Maybe things are too easy…they’re going too smoothly.
I’m not used to smooth. I’m used to craziness, chaos, bedlam.
That I can do — I thrive on that.
But this…this is foreign to me.
Now, I know some of you are thinking, “Be glad it’s going smoothly, and enjoy it.” And, I know you’re right — I should be…
But I can’t. And I don’t know why.
And that bugs me.
But not enough to make me feel better.
And if you followed that, well, I don’t know whether to apologize to you or applaud you.
What does it say about someone who can’t be happy when things are going well?
Ok – that’s a bit of a reach. I’m happy…just uneasy about the happiness.
That doesn’t really make it sound better, does it?
I’m just more comfortable with chaos. I know what to expect with chaos.
I’d like to get comfortable with things going well…
I guess it will take practice.
Until then, I’ll just stress out about not being stressed out. That always makes me feel better.
Again — apologies and applause. 🙂